Ahh i love summer! it makes u feel so good and refreshed like.Okay so last week and this weekend were both really really good, excusing the terrible exams that occurced last week, i seriosuly nearly had a nervous brekadown which is pathetic coz they are gcses, but i didnt realise how wound up and sensitive i have become to everythign like.However today was one of my last, and i only have science and r.e left! 

Last weke i spent most of ym days at the aprk which was really nice and my new ambition for the summer is to become good at s-h-i-t, ahh im gunan practice everyday.On friday i went to the park with people and staurday me and erica headed to Jetsuns for the footy which was a little dull because INGLAND aint what they shuld be LYK RITE NOW.Yesterday i went to the isle of Wight fetsival which was fooking wiked, we had vip ticktes so just hung about in the lounge area for the whole day getting pissed and tanned.On a bad bad bad note, i am really ill, i sound liek a frog and am suffering from shit hayfever, noone knows what it is like unless they ahve had it, so today i was crying and gettign angry over my irritated sneezes and runnign itchy nose.eurgh.I woke up this morning still drunk/hangover and god knows how i got thru maths and georgraphy, but i did suprisingly well!:D .....best thing ever, i got free ticket to reading, scoreeee

Today i found my sister crying at the bottom of the stairs, she opened her hand and held out her palm, and her hamster was lying there, still, curled up in a tight ball, eyes shut.

as if i just happend to have this thing in my hand i answer the telephone
surprised to hear a voice come out of it
Im terrible sorry,
Voices frown my ears and cover my eyes
its not right anymore
your eyes twirl with the sunlight
and i mirror you 

I walked down the street again yesterday
though noone apreared at the glass this time
Its hard to explain
nothings there to write down
Laughing at the love for him she said
I cant remember, i dont want to
The smell of wine and heat drifts through down the lane
That i dance down
alone or not
I dont see anyone, but my hair swallows the wind
And i laugh

I dont think i do it deliberately but in every maths lesson for the past few months or soemthing i do that thing where i manage to make mr blairs voice drift into absoloute nothing and just end up thinking about things like ponies and ice cream.

Its quite bad because then im just like 'shitfuckwanker what are we doing?' and just copy what everyone else (ie rosa) is doing and go 'yeah yeah i get it now 8-) ' when really.....i have no shitting clue what the hell a 'surd' is.Anyways today was average and when in the dinner que soem year nine boy thoguht it wuld be funny to slap my arse with those stupid trays that they hand you to put your one cookie on incase u nick it, and it actually really hurt.

This morning i got a lift with craig blazey who either still fancies jade or just lieks gettign up early to give randoms a lift to school in his car,anyways i really love it when i dont have to walk :) and with the speakers virbratin on my back its like a back massage too woowoowooxxx

First day back is always a good one haha.Noone was actually in today it just felt really really empty.Happy Brithday to the rosh and all that jazz.I had my national youth theatre audition on thursday in London which was fukign scary but made me think.These weeks are gunna be mega hectic what with the shows and coursework but oh well, better busy that fat on a sofa.Feeling mega dissapointed with me but ill just wait.It snowing!:D

'These violent delights,have violent endings'

Its my birthday and i'll cry if i want to,

I'm well fifteen today haha.No-one seems to be around my house apart from my brother who was singing me happy birthday whilst doing a little jig.Last night i went out with the girls from my year, i got served and ordered 3 vodka and cokes at the resturant which was pretty good and i ended up getting quite drunk.There was this little black baby on the bus and her daddy told us to sing to her and she LOVED it, she cried when we stopped and she blatently just loved my peek-a-boo face.Jade and ginger will in year elleven got together but as soon as he walked round the corner she spat it all out HAHAHA.

Today im gunna go into town to get lots of things and meet up with ellie rosa and aimi and hopefully(please) i want to see everyone else? well i best go, im still not legal for anything!what an underager, anna saved me a poster from the nme tour that some guy had stole off a wall...ahhh man, im really happy:)

Today was good.This weeks been pretty easy but a bit wierd and quiet.Yesterday i had a proper work-out with dance class.It made me feel so good.Today i went into town with aimi and bought my willy mason tiket& i.d photos, they were so bad and mum told me i have to get a new set for my National theatre form.haha.I cant wait till i go to new york with le rosa man. Desperate housewives is so good and Gabrielle is blatently the best.It my birthday next week mmmmm.

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BIIIINNNNKKKIIIIIIEEEEE haha my compture is like well working now.I have to go to the doctors today because it seems that rosa has given me her germs.I NEED to spend my Whsmith vouchers...help?love izzy.